It has been three years since I blogged.
A lot has happened: Employment changes; moving; health problems that I learned to deal with; learning to live with others; husband’s health problems; and so much more. LIFE!
I have not felt like writing in a very long time. as you saw above, so much has taken place. I have so many different feelings in me that I have not been able to straighten them out.
I suffer from Migraines and Occipital Neuralgia. After the last four years of providing Music and Motion, Judaic Studies and more to preschools, I have had to give it up. It got to be too much for me especially the last few months. It is difficult to model jumping, galloping, running, and much more when one has a migraine, and the ON is flaring up. Just medication does not take care of the pain and or aura much of the time. The fluorescent lights! A big problem too. Teachers screaming, kids screaming, etc. I miss these preschoolers. I love teaching them. I feel a hole in my heart. I feel like a part of my purpose for being on this earth has been taken away.
I have gone through three neurologists due to medical coverage reasons; or that he/she was not cutting it when it came to care. I know that migraines, and ON are not curable, but they are manageable. They are both trial and error conditions. Each doctor has his/her methods. Not all medications assist all the time. Botox for migraines, nerve blocks, migraine abortives, and more.
The other difficulty with each doctor is the office staff. Most office staff, do not return phone calls. The other problems is getting prescription refills. A present office either does not respond to me or to the pharmacy. When I finally get them to call in a script, the office gets it wrong. It took five tries!
So this is a taste of what else has been happening the past few years.
My husband and I purchased a home with our oldest son and family. We had to learn to live with them and they had to learn to live with us. It is OK. What is surprising, is that we still are not fully unpacked! Our suite is coming a long, slowly but surely. Again, LIFE!
My poor husband has had 2 surgeries to help him deal with his neck, hand, and back issues. He is my superman. Grass does not grow under his feet. He had his last surgery a couple days before Rosh Hashana. This surgery was much more invasive than the last one. Whereas, he was back at work a week later last time, with this surgery, it will be a month or more. He is having to rest this time around, take it easy, hold back. He just doesn’t lay down 24/7, but he has to pace himself and watch his movements.
There are good things happening and worth writing about, so, as Arnold Schwartenegger said, “I’ll be bahk.” I want to try writing again. I think it may help me and hopefully help you.