On Saturday morning I led my first Jewish Meditation Service.
It was a compilation of readings, chants, breathing, and visuals. What was exciting about this experience was that I wrote some of it, gathered some of the service from different sources, read, watched Shefa Gold’s You Tube Video, and wrote two of the chants which seemed to be well received.
I practiced my deliverance of the service for a week so it would come across naturally.
Upon being asked to do this, I quickly answered, “Yes,” then asked myself if I really agreed to do this! It is not me! I have noticed changes in how I do not get as much satisfaction from services like I use to. I would rather study, have a shorter service, and schmooze. The funny thing is, I still love leading services.
The experience of pulling the Meditation Service together was an exciting experience. Upon telling a friend of mine who leads them, she was surprised because she even said that I did not seem like the type of person to do this.
Something kept pulling me closer and closer to the idea, and it just seemed so natural for me. The reading of Shefa Gold’s book was of great assistance, and playing with her chants on my keyboard helped me to write two with little hesitation. They just poured out of me!
The day of the service, I was a little anxious for a little while, then a calm came over me. I believe I had around a dozen people. From the time the service began, it just flowed. Upon looking at the participants from time to time, some had their eyes closed; upon telling them to breath, I could hear their breaths, I saw a couple watching me, and their singing voices were beautiful!
I believe this is a new chapter in my life that I hope is a long one, and I hope more doors open for me. I got as much out of it as the participants.
I was offered a job for the next school year that I do not know if I want. It is what I love to do, but it is where. I really enjoy the school, but there are other areas I would rather concentrate on. I told the director that I would let her know soon after Passover. She said that it is OK.
Like I said, a new chapter and I found out a little more about ME.