I was OK until today.
Last week week we lost a wonderful family friend, Gene Arden. I was sad, I cried went to the funeral, made shiva calls, and really wanted to be there for Sandra.
Very early Monday morning, we lost our Step-Uncle, Norton Niss. Since I was conducting the funeral, I guess I did not express my emotions or grieve because I was busy interviewing the family for the eulogy and keep tabs with our Aunt and talking to Norton’s children, then putting it all together. I held it together until I started singing El Maleh Rachamim, then started crying, but held it together pretty well. Really cried during the color guard and the presentation of the flag to Aunt Bernice.
Today is a very difficult day. I am tired and sad, especially sad for those who lost loved ones. I have so much I can do and really should do, but can’t do, and, I certainly don’t feel like singing which is so unusual for me.
Hopefully tomorrow will be a brighter day.